I have some very dear friends who are going through life’s inexplicable heartbreaks: loss of a spouse to suicide, loss of a parent/sibling/child, a diagnosis of incurable illnesses (multiple sclerosis, cancer, lyme disease), a near death experience, loss of function (physical/cognitive), loss of marriage, loss of financial security, loss of home and more.
There are times when there is more to say than can be said. More to share than can be shared. More to life’s experiences than can be understood. No one understands this more than the one going through it. You may feel like the only one. You may feel like it’s too much.
The Light is there, always. God knows what you wish to say, knows what you wish to share, and hears you. You are being served behind the scenes. This eternal being loves you and will never give up on you!
Say just a little more next time. Share just a little more next time. Those who love you can take it. Those you love can hear it. Being silent because others will not understand does not serve anyone, including you and your children if you have any.
A bicycle wheel has many spokes which keeps it balanced. You have many emotions which keeps you balanced. If you dare to have the emotions, you will heal. If the emotions have you (silenced), you will not.
Try to remember this next time you are healing an unseen wound. Find space and appropriate safe places to express all of your emotions. It may not feel like it in the moment, but it will serve you and the ones you love.
And for those who cannot hear it or understand it, be grateful that life hasn’t touched them in that deep place yet. Be grateful they don’t have to feel what you feel, know what you know about the simple unfairness of life.
Those who have been touched deeply by life are also those who can deeply touch others. We live in gratitude and joy, because we have sat with deep pain and still do. We’ve learned to embrace the many spokes of the wheel. We continue to spin, not because we wanted it this way, but because we know Divine Love. We have been touched by this Love and are willing to continue to bear the unbearable to ignite faith, peace and love into all who are broken to keep moving forward, including ourselves.
Toni McGillen
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